Life

You know, I'm too damn busy at work for my own good. I tend to only do blogging stuff when I am at work and can steal away for a break or during lunch. Lately I haven't had time to do crap. No time to read all of my favorite blogs and no time to update this here blog of my own. (not to mention no time to update Stinky Boy's blog - poor thing!!)

Well to be honest I actually haven't been at work all that much. Lucky govt employee that I am, I have a crapload of stored up time that I have to take off. Basically, I worked a ton of extra hours (like 15 each week) for a big part of the year last spring when we were overwhelmed with work... now I need to use that time up, so I am literally taking days and days and days off at at time. The problem is that workload hasn't slowed down at all and I still have a crapload of work to do but now I only have a fraction of the time to do it. And, my "real" life suffers. For all of the people out there in the world that don't think govt has downsized: believe me, they have.

So we had the good and the bad earlier this month, and now there have been a few traces of ugly. Breaking up IS supposed to be hard to do, so I expect this. Jeff (ah hell I am sick of Mr. Jill or J, etc.) is a little upset that I have accepted this and am anxious to get on with it. I just function better this way. The idea of my family being changed forever is devastating to me, but it IS what needs to happen. My biggest worry right now is that if we don't move forward with this that we'll get stalled. I don't want to be stalled. I want to live.