Crushin'

Well, I guess I'm moving on - or at least moving in the right direction. I say this for a couple of reasons but primarily because I've realized that I have a crush on a guy from work. Nothing wrong with some good old fashioned flirting to remind myself that there is life out there.

Thank goodness Jeff moved out because I know that if he hadn't we would likely not have made it through these couple of months without getting back together. Even with him a half hour away, we still talk on the phone every day and have a kid and a dog together. So, it was tough. I feel like I'm over the hump of wondering if breaking up was the right thing to do though and I'm glad for that. Over our eleven years together we broke up once in the very early part of our relationship and argued and should have broken up a few more times along the way. But we always ended up staying together. I'm grateful now that we were able to make this move.

And as far as brushing off my flirting skills I need to keep that under control. It's like being set free after being locked up for years. I'm enjoying the freedom but I am remembering not to make a fool of myself.

What's on my mind a lot is that eleven years ago I was not fat. Now, I am fat. I don't want to be out in the dating world with a fat body. Plain and simple that is how it is. I guess I better get to getting then.

Oh, isn't this fun?